ugh

well i havent posted in a really long time but i figured itd be good to do so. im just laying here waiting for ray to get home from the metro center. its good that he went out, its been forever since he has. i hope he has a good time. i finally got amiah to sleep. shes super sick and is coughing bad and has a super runny nose. i feel awful for her cuz theres nothing i can do to help her. all the cold meds are for four years and up. i am taking her to the doctor tomorrow morning so hopefully it wont be anything serious. ive been super blah the past couple days. i did something unexcusable. i cant believe i did that i forgot to pick up my lil brother from school. i am always afraid of doing that to amiah somewhere or something but  its even worse that i forgot my lil brother. i knew i messed up because i cant remember the last time my dad was as mad at me as he was yesterday. i know ill never do anything like that again tho cuz i literally bawled my eyes out for well more than a couple hours. i was like so pissed at myself cuz it happened.  still am. i just really hope that i can earn back that trust.