I love my life.

I remember...

When my mom bought that hat for me for my birthday.

Day 9 here I come!

Believe me. Its significant.

Mission macroeconomic quiz

I'm reading like a maniac. I need to pass this quiz. Stressed. I wish I could call off work to study but there's way too many people I'm responsible for tomorrow. Deep breath. Keep reading. At least its starting to make a little sense. Sort of. A little bit. Maybe. Perhaps. Man do I hate this effing class. Lol.

Mmmmmlinos

I just won a bet with ramon on how long it'd take to get to linos. I love when I'm right. Lol.

Almost...

Its almost Halloween! We r going to take Amiah to a trunk or treating like we did last year. Someone that I work with helps with one and last year we went and Amiah got so much stuff it was awesome! We got her a costume but I haven't told anyone what she's gonna be yet. Its a suprise! Its adorable and I hope she likes it.  Should be fun. I love halloween but prolly won't dress up. I wanted to make sure that we had enough money to get Gremlin taken care of. That's what's important. :) ok. Time to sleep.

More...

Its been awhile and I have so many! I hear lil Gremlin snores as I do this. Aahhh. How amazing life is.

Random pics...

Zzzz

I'm so freakn tired but I have the worse insomnia EVER. What is the deal. Maybe I should be doing homework right now. Ugh. FML.

Lol

She laughed when she saw this picture of herself. That made it
That much better.

Ps. Look for the boogie!

Yay!

Its finally our weekend and Amiah and I just ate the rest of an oreo mcflurry that we bought a few days ago. Its almost her bed time so what better time to feed her sugary icecream. Haha. Its super ucky outside all rainy and stuff. Windy and cold too. Ew. Ok. More homework.

Look @ that hair!

Lol

Mmmmmmbbq

Hello! We just got done eating at Famous Daves. Rays mom and gramma took us. Amiah ate the hell out of some chicken tenders. She's been eating non stop! Yesterday morning she had her normal glass of milk and then immediately wanted cereal with milk so we got her some. Right after the cereal she wanted a lunchable. Ate that then wanted more snacks. I was like holy hell ima run out of food real quick going at this rate.
I think she might be having a growth spurt. I dunno what else it could be.

Just a couple...

Shes alive

Yes. Its been a long time. It gets busy being a full time unit manager, full time student, and full time mommy. I'm hanging in there tho. I started writing in a real journal but I'm lazy in writing in that too. Ima try to keep up with this. I need to post pictures of Gremlin.

My 2 favorite people!

Indecisive

I dunno what to do.

Blah blah blah

Okay. Did a decent chunk of homework. Now I'm just winding down to get ready for bed. These hours for work make it really hard to get homework done during normal hours. I guess I could do it in the morning but that's Mymy time. I always feel bad if I'm on the computer during the only time I'm with amiah while she's awake. I want to spend as much time with her as possible because I have to work all damn day and night. It makes me sad that I don't get to eat dinner with her. I cannot wait for this next month to be over with so I can hopefully be with her. I can't wait to spend more time with her. I feel like I should have made this decision a long time ago. I guess I'm just really worried about the effects its going to have on the people around me. I just don't know of any other way to not be depressed about it. I still can't wrap my brain around it. I feel like my hearts saying one thing and my brains saying another and I guess I'm thinking that my heart is saying something serious and I need to listen.  I dunno how else to explain it. Blah blah blah. I'm tired. Good night.

@wūd

I took this picture today while Amiah, Dadda, and I were hiking. I thought the colors were beautiful and serene.

Mmmmmpancakes...

We are just waiting for a table at johnny pamcakes. I'm going to get the pancakes. They're the best pamcakes I've ever eaten.

Kudos!

Apparently one of my Chase customers called back in and wanted to let someone know how good of a job I did! I must be doing something right.

Yeah...

Yeah...I forgot how hard it is to work full time and go to school.  I did it in highschool but it was different because school was something I had to do and not something that I really wanted to do. College is different. Not only is it stuff that I want to know but its something that I'm paying a lot of money to learn so there's a lot of pressure. Its hard finding the energy after work to do school and then also spending time with Amiah. My worst fear right now is missing out with Amiah. I already feel as though I don't spend enough time with her cuz of work but now I have school too. I've been thinking a lot about staying home with her while I attend school and then probably working part time so that way id be able to spend more time with her as well as being able to concentrate more on school. I'm still trying to weigh out the pros and cons but I'm really contemplating it. We live pretty good right now but i think id be able to sacrifice some things in exchange for mymy time. I'm kinda stuck tho because my decision affects others as well so I don't know. I've been stressed and depressed and time is going by waaaay too fast. I don't want it to be too late. I wish I knew what to do. My heart is telling me one thing but my brain is telling me another. Why can't they just agree for once?

At the airport with papa!

Lockwood park

Sleeeeeepy...

Bueno! I'm just sitting here trying to find something to do while the rest of the people in my class finish taking the assessment. It was really easy. All you had to do was look the info up in "Chase Answers" which is the search engine for Chase employees. Pretty easy to use. I'm super tired though. I just drank my entire energy shot. It was a "Worx" one. Normally those work for me better than the 5 hour energy shot ones but I don't get the crazy amount of jitters. But I don't really feel it as much as I'd hoped. Once I get sleepy its hard to recover from it, especially in here where it's just so mundane. I miss my gremlin. I sometimes wish that I can take her to work with me so she can keep me company. I love her. Okay, I should pay attention now. Will try to blog more later! Byeeeee!

Married to a

Chicken ring! Lol

Yep shes 2 and...

Plays video games!

Finally...

So I'm excited to announce that I'm finally going to be a student again! It's been a really long time since I've been a student but I'm super freakn happy about it. I'm kinda proud of myself that I stuck with my gut and finally got back to school. It's time that I stick with it and get a degree.I really want one and I really believe that I can do this. It'll be hard...and probably really expensive....but it's possible and that's what matters. Then I can try to get a real job. lol. I'm tired of having bosses. I've always tried to be in management where I work and have been pretty successful at that but I don't really wanna just be a manager where ever work. I want to be the owner. lol 


That's my goal tho, is to eventually own a business. 


Step one: Get enrolled in school: Complete.
Step two: Finish school: In progress.

i dont know who this is but it made me laugh...

Christopher Whalen - Rockford Mugshots

Whipped cream on oreo...

Return of the Jen

Just thought I'd hop on and say hi. It's been awhile since bloggin on here so i owe it. Been doin okay over here lately, despite the crazy up in the air instability at my work but other than that peachy. I'm just on the second day off before having to go back to work. The first day back is always the worst. It usually takes me longer than normal to wake up and get into work mode. I'll make it tho. At least i'm not going to go in without sleep like I did last week. I feel like i require a more than usual amount of sleep than average adults. Ray makes fun of me cuz he can get like six hours and function fine but i need at least 8 otherwise i'm miserable. I didnt always used to be that way but it seems like the older i get the more sleep i require. lol. I thought it was supposed to be opposite.


It's been so nice out lately. I've been spending alot of time outside with amiah. I love being outside. Its always the best after a long winter. I've been taking Amiah in teh stroller and going for lots of walks. I'll go to walgreens to shop for random things and always hit up the park on the way back. Amiah loves it. She's discovered the slide and the route that she needs to get to it. She says "weeee" when she slides down it. It sucks when we have to leave tho cuz she is never ready to go. She always cries. I was pretty successful this last time tho, I let her just follow me while she carried her sippy cup of water. I think distracting her worked. 


Going through mommyhood has been a blast so far. I'm currently looking to purchase a bike and then get a kid bike trailer for amiah to ride in behind me. i think that'll be the best ever!  I was looking on a few websites for the trailer. They are pretty expensive brand new so i might see if i can use one of my babysrus coupons and apply it towards one at toysrus.I don't know if i can do that or not. i need to buy  a bike too tho. I'm super excited. I'm thinking i'm going to get those next pay check. Thats my goal. We've been doing really good since tax time. Weve been saving money and stuff and making sure all of our bills are caught up. It feels good to have money in the bank and be current on bills.  I deserve a bike and trailer for it. :) Ray doesnt know this yet. lol (now he probably does...love you!)


Alright, i better get to reading my book on mah kindle fire. I'm reading a stephen king novel called "under the dome". It's pretty good so far. It's about a giant dome that all of a sudden is over this little town and they're describing when the dome comes down it's severing these animals and people and stuff. super creepy! 


Good night all.

Mmmm

Guess what I ate for dinner? Lol

What do you think of curled hair?

Yup!

So, its official. My super awesome step mom got me into scrapbooking. I didn't do so good on my first one but I started a new one and so far its looking amazing! I went to hobby lobby and got 50% off of almost every single item I bought, plus 40% off the most expensive item cuz the cashier was super cool and was all about saving me money. We had him one other time too and he did the same thing. He actually loves his job and is always in such a good mood, its a lot of fun. I told him that he's the reason that ill always come back to that store. I always get confused tho cuz I'm not used to havng customer service that good. Lol. I had to tear myself away from my scrapbook in order to start getting ready for bed and now I'mv  on here writing about the fn thing. Obsessed much? Yay! So many more ideas!

Trip to Idaho

Trip to Idaho

Trip to Idaho

Destination reached...

Hello. We finally made it to Lewiston Idaho. It took forever. The car ride was so freakn long and boring for most of the way until we got to the mountains. The mountains were beautiful. I took a lot of pictures with my phone. I'll be posting them here in the next few days. I'm actually sitting in a loft in Delana's husband's Mom's house. I kinda got my own room which was pretty cool. I'm about to lay down and try to sleep soon. It's after 3 am right now. We drove for a really long time today. Rhea wasn't too bad today until later on this evening. Yesterday was terrible. She's colicky and cries a ton for like no apparent reason. Well, she's gassy but it was like excessive. I was extremely fortunate that Amiah wasn't like that. She was an angel. I didn't realize that parents went through this with colicky babies. I wouldn't be able to stand it every single day. I know that if I was actually going through it, I would make it through some way or another but looking at it compared to how Amiah was, it would be so difficult. I give moms and dads props that had to go through something like that. You have to have a ton of patience. I should probably get going now and try to sleep. I don't know what time everyone is getting up in the morning but I had better have some sleep otherwise I'll be one cranky baby myself. I'll be posting pictures soon. Gnight!

So...tired...

So we just got done driving for like 15 hours. We pretty much stopped every single hour due to either us or the baby. The past 3 hours Rhea continued to cry like constantly. She wasn't a happy baby at all. She's pretty sick of being in the car seat for so damn long. We are ending day 2 of our 3 day journey. Tomorrow we are going to finish up driving through Montana and then we'll be in Idaho. I'm excited to start the drive tomorrow because its going to be all mountain terrain. I've missed the mountains. I haven't seen the mountains in person since I was a little kid moving across country from Vegas to Wisconsin. It's going to be beautiful and I'm going to take a bunch of pictures. I would have been posting pictures this whole time on here but my phone barely has any signal on my phone. I guess T-Mobile pretty much doesn't exist in this part of the country. lol. I probably should have known that considering I work for T-Mobile. Eh. Ahh well. I'm PTO and I dont have to work. lol. Anyways. I'll try to update more when I get to Idaho. I might actually have a few minutes besides the end of the night to actually type out some stuff. I cant really do it in the car because i have to have wifi which i can connect my phone up as a hotspot but its not all that great trying to type and ride in the car at the same time. Might get a headache. lol. Okay. I'm exhausted and i'm going to bed. we have a solid like 9 hours of driving tomorrow ahead of us.

XD

Amiah's eating her second attempt at dinner. Grilled cheese. She's eating and coloring at the same time. She's multi-tasking. We picked up her portraits the other day from Kiddie Kandids (inside Babysrus). The pictures turned out okay considering the fiasco it was trying to get them taken. Lol. Every worst case scenerio that you can think of pretty much happened. She didn't want to do anything I wanted her to do. She wasn't sitting on any type of prop or chair and she wouldn't concentrate on any one toy. She kept wanting, out of all the props and toys there, the fn football! I didn't want the pictures taken with her holding the football. After an hour and a half of the memorable experience we had our pics ordered. Lol. Alright well, good night!

Daddy's thumb

Here's my Angel, holding on to her Daddy's thumb. The poor thing has a mark on her face from me accidentally kicking her in the face. I felt so awful, I cried. I don't think she remembers but I can cuz of her battle wound. I love her.

Some

Heart...