Skeet shooting

So the premier is tonight of Skeet shooting. the short film i was in. I'm kinda nervous but i think its gonna be alot of fun because afterwards there's a question answer panel that the cast has to do. lol. hilarious. Afterwards theres an art show at cryptonight. i might go i'm not sure. i have pto for today so i dont have to work or anything which is cool but poor ramon is in crutches from trying to jump a creek. i still dont have permission from him to put the video on the internet. i'm trying tho! lol.

From my wii

Hello! I am on my blog via the wifi on my wii. I thought i'd try it and it actually worked. hehe. smart cookie.

Beautiful day

So, Ramon and I went to Sinnissippi again because it was so nice out today and we brought bread to feed the duckies. As were feeding them we witnessed a brutal attempt at murder. There was these duckies that were trying to murder the other duckie by holding his head under water. There was like 4 or 5 against that one. I was so scared! lol. I took a video of it. I know its nature and stuff but dang, at least make it fair fight! The thing eventually flew away but it was like the craziest thing ever. I didn't feed none of the mean bastards after that.lol


So Anyhow, I took a bunch of other pictures too. Here they are. There was some cute geeslets. Here's a video of the cute lil fuzzy things. In the video they look yellow but they were neon green in real life! haha.

Finally it's not raining...

Finally it's a nice day today. The other day me and my dad went to Wayne's feed store and I bought a couple tomato plants. actually 4. it was only like 2 dollars for them. I planted them today. Last year I tried to plan tomatoes but I didnt plant them in a very good location with alot of sun so they never produced any maters. I planted them on the other side of the house this time so it should work out perfect. Here's some pictures of my lil babies.

Mah Biscuit...

This is my lil Biscuit. He's over 2 years old. He's the longest living dwarf hamster ever! I love him and he's so cute. His favorite food is bacon but in the picture he's inhaling some lettuce.

I got to hang out with my dad for a lil bit...

My dad and I went to Wayne's feed store and we looked at the fish and then after that we went to the pumphandle inn and seen the inside of the ancient motel. the inside totally reminded me of the shining. lol.

Ramon and I went to Sinnissippi Park before he had to work. Here's some pictures that we took.

Random

Summer's almost here...

I took this picture yesterday by my house. I thought that the shadow looked cool, then i played with the colors. and now it's called "evil/good".

It's a beautiful day out and I'm glad that summer is just about here. I made blts today for lunch and I'ma bring one to ramon (he's at work) i hope he likes it, he doesnt know that i'm bringing him lunch yet. ::sneeze:: ::sneeze:: jeezus. I've been hiccuppingfor the last 20 minutes and now sneezing. this is insane. lol

It's f'n raining...AGAIN!

Yesterday...

Yesterday was a hard day. I had sorted through all of my pictures that I have and picked all the ones of Brian out and put them aside. Becky, his mommy, wanted me to come over and share them with her. She wanted to see the pictures that she may have never seen.

On May 14th 2006 her son passed away on Mother's day. I'll never forget the day I found out. I cried and cried and couldn't believe that it was true, didn't want to believe it. I had just seen him probably hours before he passed. We were still friends at the time. I dated him prior though for a really long time. I think it was almost 4 years. It hurt so bad that he passed away and when I seen him that night, the night before he passed, I feel as though I could have prevented it from happening. I knew something wasn't right about him. I knew he didn't seem like himself. He was doing stupid things and I knew it but didn't do anything about it. I was just as bad myself. So anyhow back to the original thought.

I went to walgreens 2 nights ago and had a picture that I had of him and his mom together and I had it blown up to an 8 by 10. I bought a really pretty frame for it and I gave it to her yesterday when i drove to roscoe to her house. I gave it to her as a mother's day present. She took it and cried and hugged me and she loved it. I was so nervous about going over to her house because it had been about 3 years since I had seen her. But I knew it was something that I had to do.

We went through the numerous pictures that I had of him and we sat and cried together. She showed me where she kept his things and different pictures that she had of him through her new house. She told me that she couldn't stay at the old house because thats where everything happened. I hugged her and told her that I cant imagine how she feels because it hurts me alot and to be his mother it has to be a million times harder.

Yesterday when I woke up I felt inspired. and this was before I even went over to Becky's house. I wrote a poem.

Going a step back

For the good of a life that fell

The mistake should never have happened

as far as I can tell.

That day

Those fears

That night

Those tears

The future

that coulda been

They haunt and repeat

again and again.

Reliving the past

I've never done.

Only for this mother.

and her fallen son.

It's for the best.

I repeat in my head.

It'll help in the end.

they've always said.

Don't burn bridges.

It's always wrong

You'll never know

When they'll be gone.

So now and since then, I've carried a camera with me always. I take alot of pictures and would love to be a photographer. I take pictures of everything. We are sometimes only left with memories and pictures.

Hollow

I feel hollow inside

my feelings jumbled.

caused by nothing.

but something tumbled.

going through pictures.

my childhood gone.

feeling as though

i've done something wrong.

my friends have disappeared

to death they fell.

my heart just beats

and continues to swell.

temporary i'm sad

i know itll go

just today of all days

it goes so slow.

Redo rabbit rabbit... lol see previous blog.

Yay I'm so happy! I just talked to my Grandmommy! It turns out that I dislexically put the number in my phone. I reversed one of the numbers. When my dad called me back and told me that she was expecting me I really looked at the number that he gave and finally figured out that I had it wrong. lol. I talked to her for a lil while. I don't talk to her much but I miss her terribly. I told her rabbit rabbit and she laughed. I promised her that me and my boyfriend would come see her this summer cuz i miss everyone. I think family is important and i want to keep in touch. I used to be so close to her until she had her stroke but after that it was all different, in ways I can't even begin to describe. I'm happy that she remembers me and when I told her that i loved her and that I missed her she said it back and that right there made my whole day!

Rabbit Rabbit

I remember when my Grandmommy used to call and tell me that. "Rabbit rabbit" I just tried to call her and tell her but she didn't answer her phone. I left a message but the person that left the voicemail greeting was male so I'm not even sure if i had the correct number. My dad's gonna call me right back and see if it was the right number. I had it right... ::shrugs:: ahh well, i tried at least. Rabbit rabbit everyone! and Happy April Fool's day!