Happy new year!

So... this is my last post in this year of 2010. It's been quite the year too lemme tell ya. lol. I think I've grown up more in this year than I thought I ever would. I guess that's what having a kid does to ya. It's been hard. It's also been really f'n awesome. It's totally worth it. I cannot believe I used to say that I would never have kids. You don't really understand how it is til it happens and its definitely something I'll never regret. This year has been awesome. I have an awesome family that has been there to support and help me through everything. Not just help me but help Amiah and Ray too. 2011 will be a new chapter for me. I want to start these electrician classes so that I can have a better job and be happier. Making more money will be a plus too. Goodbye 2010, you've been really good to me. Thank you. I look forward to meeting the next year. Happy new year everyone! 

Yes....I almost died.

My last day off before going back to work. I had a nice 3 day weekend unexpectedly. I'm glad I'm salaried otherwise I'd be worried. 


I totally forgot to blog about this but the other night my dad watched Amiah for awhile and me and Ramon went out for dinner for our 4 year anniversary. We were on our way to Texas Roadhouse and were on State street. All of a sudden some guy in a van was riding our ass like crazy for no reason, like we didn't even pull out in front of him or anything and then he laid on his horn for like 30 seconds straight! I know it doesn't sound like that long but when you hear a horn for 30 seconds it actually is forever! Anyways we were like WTF and Ramon slowed down alittle bit to see if that guy would relax and get off our ass and then all of a sudden he gunned the gas and flew to the other lane almost hitting the guy next to us and then sped up and cut us off! He slammed on his breaks and we almost hit him. Like this guy was seriously psycho for no reason. Dude. I called 911 cuz it scared the living crap out of me and I got his license plate. They said they were going to send out a broadcast for him (whatever that means). It was crazy like I thought this guy was going to kill us dude. We ended up making it to Texas Roadhouse but I was like shaking for a good 10 minutes after we got there. I think the holiday's and roadrage bring the crazy out in people. lol

Bacon?

So I'm just sitting here at work. Just thought I'd drop a line. I was on amazon.com shopping for Christmas presents. I love Christmas. I actually have some money to be able to get gifts. (it's alot more fun that way) I can't wait until Amiah is old enough where she understands what it is and believes in Santa. It's going to be so much fun! I'm going to do stockings and everything! Cookies at night with milk and yay! So exciting.I'm going to take some pictures of her soon with a santa hat with christmas lights around her. it's going to be adorable so look forward to that!

Working hard and hardly working...who woulda thunk?

I'm at work and am supposed to be working. lol. What a great day it's going to be. I get to get off at 3 pm and then go home and see my loves. I can't wait.

My life as I know it.

My life as I know it is f'n AWESOME! lol.  I have a perfect baby girl. I was very fortunate that there weren't any complications. I thank the universe every day for how lucky I am to have someone so beautiful and perfect and to be able to call mine. My little being that I love to share. I'm thankful that I have an awesome dad and awesome stepmom that loves taking care of my lil being. Life used to be so hard sometimes where it made me question whether or not it was worth going on but never once was I selfish to put an end to it and every minute of every day makes life worth living. The hard parts just make the awesome ones that much better and there wouldn't be good ones if there weren't bad ones. I always used to say that I wouldn't have kids. I was scared. I always said that because I was afraid that my kids would turn out like me or go through some of the hard things that I had to go through. But that's what makes us individuals and some have it worse than others but we all go through something. I love the way I turned out, my parents did a good job. There were some things that could have been better but in the end I'm me and I'm proud and I know what's important. I have 2 awesome parents that are finally sober and can watch their Grandbaby grow up and be just as awesome as her mother. :-D 

Just now.

Sick.

So I'm sick. I have been sick for a few days now and am hoping that it will go away soon without giving it to the gremlin. I would feel terrible if I made her feel the way I feel right now. I almost fainted at my doctor's appointment and I've been running a fever for a day and a half. Ramon bought me chicken noodle soup and medicine and zinc. So far I'm not feeling any different. I didn't even work a whole day at work today. I went to work for about an hour and then left for my doctor appointment and was going to go back to work after the appointment but since I almost fainted twice there, I thought maybe it wasn't a good idea for me to be doing anything besides laying down. I know that I wouldn't have been productive anyhow. Ray just went to work to do his phone time. I hope he returns soon, he's really good at taking care of me. I have to work tomorrow which I'm hoping I'll be alive for. Should be physically but probably not mentally. The gremlin you ask? She's doing wonderfully. She's over there in her make shift play pen exploring the world the way a baby should be. She's been talking alot and says "da da" Not "ma ma" yet but it'll come. We are listening to Banana Pancakes by Jack Johnson. Definitely one of my favorite songs EVER. 

Jack Johnson - banana pancakes