Today I need all the help I can to remain stable so I don't rip someones head off. I swear to fucking god I hate my job sometimes.

Liike thatt one day

Don't mind my keyboard (tyypo diisclaimer).

I feel the same way as I ddid that night I found out about grandmommy. Awful news blindssidded by it. Both grrandmas. In ffaact all 3 now aren't doing good. My eyes hurt and my nose is. Clogged. Ii can do nothing to save the ineviitable whiich only  confiirms my helpplessness. I hate when I ddont have control over my feelings. 

6 months ago...

Firstt id like to apologize in advance for my phones keybboard. It multiplies letters. Andd adds perioodds for no reason andd I ddont feel like.  Correcting it. I tthink it addds character.

6 months ago I was in a different place. It was worst case scenariio and someething had to bee done. Nnothing in this world iis worthh losing family, significant others, or gremlins over and I'm thankfuul that I had the support andd courage to goo tto batttle. I'm continuouuslu obtaining viictory and  proud of it.

Most people won't know and the ones that do won't always underrstand but I know that what I've done will be forever life. Changing and I will always appreciate the chances that I was given to riight the wrongs.

I've survivvvedd another day andd noww it makes me happy.

~ Jen

One a dem thangs

One of my favorite things to do is sleep with a Gremlin blankie.

Yup some bs

It sometimes feels like life is passing me by. Makes me wonder if the decisions I make apply. This game we play that no one wins.  This game that ends but never begins. So sweet. So sour. All undetermined with no power. Blah blah. All made up. Blah blah all corrupt. Lol

Cricket cricket

Its 11pm and I just wrote a paper for my business ethics class. I'm sleepy and I hope Amiah sleeps past 6. Lol. I can wish. I started packing and it def took a lot longer than I thought. (Shursh Ramon) lol. We are going thru stuff as we pack and we've lived here going on 7 years almost so you can imagine how its gonna go. I'm making a commitment of at the least 45 min a day every single day til we move and hopefully that will work cuz I have full time work and school too. Mymy likes to help. :) ok. Def time for bed!