Okay. Did a decent chunk of homework. Now I'm just winding down to get ready for bed. These hours for work make it really hard to get homework done during normal hours. I guess I could do it in the morning but that's Mymy time. I always feel bad if I'm on the computer during the only time I'm with amiah while she's awake. I want to spend as much time with her as possible because I have to work all damn day and night. It makes me sad that I don't get to eat dinner with her. I cannot wait for this next month to be over with so I can hopefully be with her. I can't wait to spend more time with her. I feel like I should have made this decision a long time ago. I guess I'm just really worried about the effects its going to have on the people around me. I just don't know of any other way to not be depressed about it. I still can't wrap my brain around it. I feel like my hearts saying one thing and my brains saying another and I guess I'm thinking that my heart is saying something serious and I need to listen. I dunno how else to explain it. Blah blah blah. I'm tired. Good night.
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