Yeah...I forgot how hard it is to work full time and go to school. I did it in highschool but it was different because school was something I had to do and not something that I really wanted to do. College is different. Not only is it stuff that I want to know but its something that I'm paying a lot of money to learn so there's a lot of pressure. Its hard finding the energy after work to do school and then also spending time with Amiah. My worst fear right now is missing out with Amiah. I already feel as though I don't spend enough time with her cuz of work but now I have school too. I've been thinking a lot about staying home with her while I attend school and then probably working part time so that way id be able to spend more time with her as well as being able to concentrate more on school. I'm still trying to weigh out the pros and cons but I'm really contemplating it. We live pretty good right now but i think id be able to sacrifice some things in exchange for mymy time. I'm kinda stuck tho because my decision affects others as well so I don't know. I've been stressed and depressed and time is going by waaaay too fast. I don't want it to be too late. I wish I knew what to do. My heart is telling me one thing but my brain is telling me another. Why can't they just agree for once?
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