I am who I am.

Dude. I haven't been on here for awhile. I've had a busy busy weekend so far. It's my last day off of work which sucks but I am feeling pretty good. I'm taking this new sleep medicine which actually works... it relaxes me and let's me fall asleep. I wake up feeling refreshed too! It's a great thing. I just wish I understood why I can't fall asleep. It's like i'll be dead tired but my brain won't calm down enough for me to fall asleep. I'm always thinking, always thinking. Nothing imparticular but just thinking. About everything sometimes and nothing other times. It makes no sense. Ramon sometimes tells me that it's all in my head as to why I can't sleep but I don't think he understands. I get angry at that expression because I don't do it on purpose. I don't think anyone really understands. Its not something I can just shut off and be fine. In a way i think he's partially right that its in my head but that's the problem. I can't sleep and that's that. I just don't understand how someone can just lay there, shut their eyes, and fall asleep. I just don't understand that. I wish I could do that. Maybe some day I won't need help falling asleep.

So, what's been new with me? Well. Tons. I hate my job. Well, I don't hate my job,I'm just tired of stuff. I love the people but the job portion is really getting out of hand. They expect so much but give so little appreciation in return. I guess that's the way it's supposed to be but its getting so frustrating. We live in a corporate world that runs workers like slaves and pays them the same.

On a plus side, I'm going to be in a short film for my friend Travis. I work with Travis. He's awesome! I won't see him as much tho because he's changing shifts at work but we'll still talk and stuff. Anyhow, I play a character named Skylar. It's a pretty sick film, hilarious but sick. Disturbing would be a better adjective. We did the first shoot today. The bed scene. I was so nervous because I had never acted before in my life and here I am pretending to do it with some dude (no it's not a porn). It was crazy tho! It's gonna be so awesome when it's done. It's about these crazy skeet shooting accidents. lol. i'll try to post it when it's done. I get to say "heptidouche" in it. Yes. I made this word up. It's a seven sided douche. lol. So yes, the hardest part of the movie is over and Travis says I did great. He says I have acting potential. lol. I hope I get rich some day. lol. Then maybe my dad can live in his pool house.

Or maybe I should just start working out, become buff, and fight for a living.

This is my character Rupert in Animal Crossing!