All I wanted to say...

My daddy called me on christmas eve.
He asked me to go to mass.
I'm not a religious person,
so I told him I would pass.

He was disappointed,
and he became upset.
He put me on a guilt trip
that I couldn't forget.

I told him I wanted to see him.
I'd come over christmas day.
I wanted to tell him I loved him,
that's all I wanted to say.

He told me not to come over.
He said he wasn't awake.
I think he was still angry,
and the story was a fake.

So here I was on christmas day.
I'd seen everyone but dad.
I'm sorry I didnt go to mass.
I'm sorry I made you mad.

My feelings are hurt.
I can't help but to sigh.
I wish it would have been different.
I wish I wouldn't cry.

Holidays are not a big deal.
It's always been this way.
I just wanted to say I love you, dad.
On this year's christmas day.

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Sometimes I worry about things that I can't change. I wish I had magic powers to stop time and catch up with things that I've been putting off. Things are never as bad as they seem and remember that there are always people that are worst off than you. Learn to appreciate what's available and not so much with what's not. Life is too short to worry about things that will not matter in a couple years. Why bother. Love and live on. You only live once...so everyone seems to think...but who would know til its your turn. I want a second try.

Sign meeee up!

I'm cooking some fish sticks right now! I'm f'n starving. So lastnight me and Ramon just hung out and listened to music. I bought him this new video gaming chair and this thing is the coolest f'n thing ever! It plugs in and has this subwoofer and speakers through the headrest. Hang on, I'm going to find a picture of it to put on here...

Yay! So yep, that's it. It is the coolest to do anything in. I was playing guitar hero lastnight and got a 500+ note streak. Yep, I got an achievement for that one. So I bought this chair for Ramon for christmas, and I'm really glad that he likes it. It was kinda expensive but it was totally worth it.

Welp I know this blog isn't too long but I wanted to hop on here and say hi! I am watching Intervention right now. It's a great show.

She still lives...

So here I am. I haven't had a chance to get on here lately so that's why the long delay in posts. I'm cooking shells and cheese right now because I'm starving. I was going to make hamburger helper but the beef we were going to use scared me. It was in the fridge for a super long time and the use date was November 22nd... We opened it and I thought it smelled not normal so I decided to throw it away even tho Ramon promised it was still good. I get nervous about things like that. It would really suck to get sick from eating bad beef. I've had food poisoning once because I ate a breakfast sandwhich from Dunkin donuts and I was sick for like 2 days, like I had to drink pedialite to stay alive. lol. It was awful. So I just stirred the shells and cheese...almost done...

I'm so excited about this Christmas. My grandmommy remembered me and that's the coolest thing that could have happened. She sent me a christmas card with a denny's gift card in it...i wouldn't have even cared if it didn't have anything at all in it, just the fact that she sent me a christmas card at all really made my christmas this year. I miss her terribly and I'm going to call her first thing tomorrow (since my dad FINALLY emailed me her phone number). :-)

Anyhow, it's dinner time so I'ma end this. No pictures today... I need to take some more and post them soon. I'll probably take some of the foot of snow we're supposed to get and post them. They will be all prettttty.

Farewell.

and so the elves dance

Send your own ElfYourself eCards

::puts her bear mittens on::

Dude, I just got my lip pierced yesterday and it's swollen right now, it f'n hurts like crazy. I had my labret done but the back was rubbing against my gums way too much and was wearing them down. it was time to take it out. (I had it for 3 years)I feel like I'm bubba from Forest gump. lol.

::listens to the heat::

I appreciate heat in my apartment.

I appreciate having an apartment.
I appreciate having my bills paid.

I appreciate having a straw to use in my soda right now.

I appreciate being able to vent to my friend Heather about anything and share with her the monkey smuggling. lol.

I appreciate being able to laugh out loud.

I appreciate being able to laugh out loud alone and not feel stupid.

I appreciate not being lactose intolerant.

So me and Ramon's 2 year anniversary is on the 10th. I swear it was the 15th of December but he insists that it was on the 10th so I'm going with that. Ramon took me out to Texas Roadhouse...that restaraunt is phenominal. It has the best steak I've ever had in my entire life. The waitress was really nice too so I asked her if she could take this pic of me and him. It's adorable!


So cereal. lol.

::sips on her koolaid::

I wish there was different font that I could use on this Blog. It doesn't give much to choose from. I want something more interesting instead of the boring "I'm typing an essay" look.

So, I'm finishing up my second day off from work and tomorrow I go back and I train my bay to do PDA. I'm pretty excited. I think they'll learn it pretty easy, they are all pretty smart. Heather will already know everything I'm sure cuz she's owned like every PDA phone we've ever had. :-D lol. That's a good thing tho.

I'm just drinking my koolaid and playing on the computer for a lil bit. I've been playing my wii for several days now...quite a bit. I've been playing animal crossing and I also downloaded a game called "Paper Mario". It's great fun. I beat the one that was made for the Gamecube (Ramon helped) and I also played the one that came out for the wii but this one came out for the Nintendo 64. It's so fun. It's addicting. I've already put in over 7 hours into that game.

It snowed like nobody's business lastnight and some of today... there's snow covering the ground now. I took a picture of it.