Happy new year!

So... this is my last post in this year of 2010. It's been quite the year too lemme tell ya. lol. I think I've grown up more in this year than I thought I ever would. I guess that's what having a kid does to ya. It's been hard. It's also been really f'n awesome. It's totally worth it. I cannot believe I used to say that I would never have kids. You don't really understand how it is til it happens and its definitely something I'll never regret. This year has been awesome. I have an awesome family that has been there to support and help me through everything. Not just help me but help Amiah and Ray too. 2011 will be a new chapter for me. I want to start these electrician classes so that I can have a better job and be happier. Making more money will be a plus too. Goodbye 2010, you've been really good to me. Thank you. I look forward to meeting the next year. Happy new year everyone! 

Yes....I almost died.

My last day off before going back to work. I had a nice 3 day weekend unexpectedly. I'm glad I'm salaried otherwise I'd be worried. 


I totally forgot to blog about this but the other night my dad watched Amiah for awhile and me and Ramon went out for dinner for our 4 year anniversary. We were on our way to Texas Roadhouse and were on State street. All of a sudden some guy in a van was riding our ass like crazy for no reason, like we didn't even pull out in front of him or anything and then he laid on his horn for like 30 seconds straight! I know it doesn't sound like that long but when you hear a horn for 30 seconds it actually is forever! Anyways we were like WTF and Ramon slowed down alittle bit to see if that guy would relax and get off our ass and then all of a sudden he gunned the gas and flew to the other lane almost hitting the guy next to us and then sped up and cut us off! He slammed on his breaks and we almost hit him. Like this guy was seriously psycho for no reason. Dude. I called 911 cuz it scared the living crap out of me and I got his license plate. They said they were going to send out a broadcast for him (whatever that means). It was crazy like I thought this guy was going to kill us dude. We ended up making it to Texas Roadhouse but I was like shaking for a good 10 minutes after we got there. I think the holiday's and roadrage bring the crazy out in people. lol

Bacon?

So I'm just sitting here at work. Just thought I'd drop a line. I was on amazon.com shopping for Christmas presents. I love Christmas. I actually have some money to be able to get gifts. (it's alot more fun that way) I can't wait until Amiah is old enough where she understands what it is and believes in Santa. It's going to be so much fun! I'm going to do stockings and everything! Cookies at night with milk and yay! So exciting.I'm going to take some pictures of her soon with a santa hat with christmas lights around her. it's going to be adorable so look forward to that!

Working hard and hardly working...who woulda thunk?

I'm at work and am supposed to be working. lol. What a great day it's going to be. I get to get off at 3 pm and then go home and see my loves. I can't wait.

My life as I know it.

My life as I know it is f'n AWESOME! lol.  I have a perfect baby girl. I was very fortunate that there weren't any complications. I thank the universe every day for how lucky I am to have someone so beautiful and perfect and to be able to call mine. My little being that I love to share. I'm thankful that I have an awesome dad and awesome stepmom that loves taking care of my lil being. Life used to be so hard sometimes where it made me question whether or not it was worth going on but never once was I selfish to put an end to it and every minute of every day makes life worth living. The hard parts just make the awesome ones that much better and there wouldn't be good ones if there weren't bad ones. I always used to say that I wouldn't have kids. I was scared. I always said that because I was afraid that my kids would turn out like me or go through some of the hard things that I had to go through. But that's what makes us individuals and some have it worse than others but we all go through something. I love the way I turned out, my parents did a good job. There were some things that could have been better but in the end I'm me and I'm proud and I know what's important. I have 2 awesome parents that are finally sober and can watch their Grandbaby grow up and be just as awesome as her mother. :-D 

Just now.

Sick.

So I'm sick. I have been sick for a few days now and am hoping that it will go away soon without giving it to the gremlin. I would feel terrible if I made her feel the way I feel right now. I almost fainted at my doctor's appointment and I've been running a fever for a day and a half. Ramon bought me chicken noodle soup and medicine and zinc. So far I'm not feeling any different. I didn't even work a whole day at work today. I went to work for about an hour and then left for my doctor appointment and was going to go back to work after the appointment but since I almost fainted twice there, I thought maybe it wasn't a good idea for me to be doing anything besides laying down. I know that I wouldn't have been productive anyhow. Ray just went to work to do his phone time. I hope he returns soon, he's really good at taking care of me. I have to work tomorrow which I'm hoping I'll be alive for. Should be physically but probably not mentally. The gremlin you ask? She's doing wonderfully. She's over there in her make shift play pen exploring the world the way a baby should be. She's been talking alot and says "da da" Not "ma ma" yet but it'll come. We are listening to Banana Pancakes by Jack Johnson. Definitely one of my favorite songs EVER. 

Jack Johnson - banana pancakes

Din din

We are making a new dinner tonight. I got the recipe from our Food Network Magazine. It's Korean style skirt steak. I made the marinade and stuff and it relaxed in that for a couple hours. Now it's cooking. It smells quite delicious in here actually. It's been seared and now it's baking for a lil bit in the oven. There's onions with it. YUM. 

Long awaited photoroooooz

Boo!

The video didn't turn out when I put it on the computer cuz I forgot that when I was taking the video I had the my phone turned horizontal and when I imported it to the computer it showed up sideways and I don't know how to rotate videos on the computer so any suggestions would be cool! :-D We are cooking a Gino's East deep dish pizza in the oven right now. It's smelling glorious. So work has been ok lately. I'm actually enjoying it. I got a brand new team at work so I have 16 new agents that I'm responsible for. They aren't very tenured so it'll be easy molding them to how I want things done. lol. I ate the pizza by the way and it was delicious. We are about to watch Pawn Stars so I'ma end this. 

First day of the week at work

So it's the first day of the week at work. My people will be on the phones all day unlike during the week where they are only on the phones for one hour a day. It's because call volume isn't high enough right now. I think after Black Friday happens and some advertisements go out for Family Mobile, it should boom. Until then, it's boring at work. I sometimes wish I was just a rep so that I can sit around and do nothing all day long. But it's kinda funny cuz being the supervisor I can make them do stupid stuff. I make up games and stuff for them to do and they have to do it, they have no choice. lol. So the nicer they are the easier they'll have it. lol. Does that make me sound like a mean supervisor? Hahaha. Doesn't matter either way. Well. I hope everyone's day is awesomeness. Yay for fall back daylight savings time. I feel like it was my unbirthday and I got an extra hour for my gift! :-D lol.  Well I was going to post a video but it hasn't gotten to my email yet from my phone so I'll have to post it when I get off work. I have to get ready to leave now, Gary should be here any minute! 

Ahh. I love the way when Amiah laughs that it melts my heart. I never ever understood that phrase until I had a baby. It really happens though. Today Amiah talked back to me. This however did not melt my heart melt as much. lol. She was gravitating towards something that she wasn't supposed to and she knows that she's not supposed to and so I said "Noooo" and she turned and looked at me, got the angry eyebrows and then cooed what it would be if it were real words a response like "I know you are not talking to me over there Mother", same tone though no joke. I was like dude. I was on the phone with Ramon and he heard her and then I told him what she did and he was cracking up. The little booger.

She does exist.

Holy f'n hell it's been so long since I've blogged. I've missed you blogger.com. Amiah just crawled right up to me and is watching me right now. If she could say hi, she would so I'm saying hi for her. Today was the halloween contest at work so I decided to dress up as Jessica from the HBO show True Blood. I ordered the Merlottes shirt and apron from HBO.com. It fit perfect. I also had fangs and fake blood. I wish I could sport fake blood every day. lol. Well...I could but it might be a little uncomfortable for others, and since when have I cared about what others think. Hahahhaa. Last Sunday was my birthday which was incredible! My dad came over and played a game of monopoly with me. It wa alot of fun and it brought back alot of memories. We used to stay up real late and play and it was always our thing. It kinda sucked he couldn't stay longer cuz Gary couldn't come until after 5 and he had to leave to do something or other I forget. He got me and Gary a cake though which was awesome! Mmmm cake. I remember one year when I was younger and it was our birthday and he shoved my face in the cake. lol. Hilarious now, not so much then. Anyways so then my brother and my mom came over which was cool. We all hung out. I gots me a really awesome chair. It reminds me of a turtle shell. I love it. Amiah likes it too. When I put her in it, she kicks like crazy and laughs. Holy crap, my laptop has about 13 minutes left until death do it part so I'ma end this. I'm making my promise to you that I will be back and this time it'll be sooner. 

fkadgl;jdlfkgdfg

I feel as though 

my brain's on fire.

My system breaking, 

my mind inquires.

Leave me be 

My world is manic.

Yesterday's fine 

today I panic.

My life's too short 

I run for time.

The more I fall, 

the less I climb.

Trying to sort

my thoughts in question.

Any ideas?

I need a suggestion.

Find a cure 

for my distress.

Hope is given

it's time to rest.

Mi Amor

She's beautiful

 Ninja and Mini Ninja

 My turn Ramon! lol

 Get it! Show that couch who's boss!

 Hmm?

 Yep I'm cute.

Moo!

 Look at that drool!

 Smirk

Updated pictures!

This animal was taking a stroll down the street.

 Smiles! 

 Oh man! I found a wrecking ball! 

 Is it just me, or does Amiah look a lil crazed in this pic?

Huh? 

 Cute! As always.

 Zzzz....

 Gremlin. Need I say more?

She's ticklish right there! She'll laugh her butt off.

Kickin it. 

 Chillin with Dad

Someone take the steak knife out of my brain. It's starting to bother me.

So I'm home with a migraine. I woke up this morning with a really bad migraine on my right side and went to work. It never went away. I even walked to woodmans to buy exedrin and ended up taking 2 of those and it's still not all the way gone. I was at work and realized that I had a migraine for 5 hours and decided its time to go home. I think alot of it has to do with stress. I'm just so tired of this job and I need a new one. I need to work on my resume and apply at comcast. I guess there's a ton of nco people that work there. Nco pays so much less and way over works their employees. Yikes I turend the air conditioner off for it to get a rest and it's boiling in here already. Amiah is in her swing. she hadn't been in it in a long time. For awhle, every time I put her in it, she would just Steve with her.. :-)  Well I'ma lay down here on the floor and watch some cartoons with her. Shes the best.

Ahh much better. A lil gremlin is just what makes me feel better.

I work for a crooked ass company

So I received a call from my manager yesterday saying that my position is no longer available with the hours that I work. I'm completely sick and tired of this crooked ass company that I work for. I was given the option to go to 2:30pm-10pm which is not an option at all. I can't work nights. There'd be no way my brother could watch Amiah from 9:30am-10pm. I'm trying to see if there's a coach position open with the same hours so that I can keep my same pay and still remain on salary. I've also emailed the department of labor because they want this change effective this Monday. I think it's all bullshit and I need a new job. God I fucking hate this company. 

Response from AMC theaters. lol

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