Goodnight

Sweet dreams.

Zzzzz...

Ugh. Its four in the morning and I can't sleep. I woke up at 3:30 and had to use the bathroom like any other normal human being, but I can't fall back to sleep. Its weird tho because every time I try to fall back asleep I get jolted back awake. My body will tingle and its like my brain will panic as if there's something wrong. I think its time for an ativan. Ugh. I hate feeling crazy. :(

Everyday

Everyday feels the same when I'm at work. Only when I get my gremlin does it become interesting.

Sad face

My gremlin is sickie. Her cough sounds horrid. I think it sounds like pnemonia. I'm calling her dr tomorrow in the morning to get her in. She needs some antibiotics asap. She seems to get sick a lot. At least this year its been a few times. Maybe its the weather. I hope its nothing that I'm doing. I bundle her up when we go outside and stuff. Hmm. I dunno. I feel terrible when she's sick tho. Her little cough sounds so desperate. It wakes her up and keeps her up. And her poor little nostrils leak to no end. She's learning how to blow her nose tho instead of letting it drip onto her lips. Ew. She's new at this. I'm new at this. I just feel really horrible when she's sick cuz it feels like I'm not doing everything I can but there's not a whole lot I can do other than keep an eye on her and give her hugs and kisses and hope that it goes away. Makes me sad to see her like that. Even if it just a cold or whatever. Mommyhood has a lot of complex experiences that are hard to explain unless you've gone through it. Things are making more and more sense.

Lol

Newborn Rhea

Delana had her baby this morning at 7 am. Rhea Lorelei Buntin. Weighed 7 lbs 11 ounces and is as cute as can be with her soft skinned little tiny scrunged in face and closed eyelids. The world, too bright to focus on anything. Her head turns as different voices drift here and there. I held her cradled in my arms. I felt her little body stretching, saw and heard an adorable litte Rhea yawn. One moment at a time. Brand new to this world. I'm so priviledged to have met such a gorgeous, innocent and inspiring individual.

Snifffff

I absolutely love the smell of freshly washed, dryer sheet smell enhanced sheets, blankets, and pillow cases. I'm thankful I can experience that.

Due

Blog was way over due. Too much has happened between the last one and this one to even try to sum it up. Things are going okay. Amiah is doing great. Ill post pictures soon. That's something that I've been neglecting. I haven't been taking them as often either. Too much stress going on at work. I will make time now though. Make memories not excuses, right? I can't write a whole lot here cuz I have to get to sleep but now that I've jotted down a little bit, it'll give me reason to continue. Not that I really needed a reason anyways. Anyhow. Fake it til you make it.

Super quick...

Just wanted to hop on here quick and drop a line. Work tomorrow morning after a couple days off. They weren't long enough. We did manage to get out of the house today and went and saw the brand new Nicholas Conservatory. It was a little expensive ($6 a person, Amiah was free). It had some amazing plants in there that I didn't even know ever existed. I took a bunch of pictures but some how at some time they all got deleted. Each and every single one of them. I don't even know how that's possible but really freakn irritating. I sent a few to my dad that ill have to send to my phone and get them saved so I can post them. I'm really disappointed that I lost em. I think its probably time to export the majority of my pictures to the computer/flashdrive. I have over 300 pics saved to my memory card. Yes I know that maybe that's the reason it had issues. Sometimes, you learn too late. Okay. Off to bed.

P.s. Daylight savings time tomorrow night. Extra hour of sleep, here I come!

Horsey

Yep

Exactly...

A little sick.

I'm a little sick. A minor cold that I picked up from the gremlin. I just drank some cough medicine with codeine. It made my throat feel a little better. I ate some delicious pork chops that Ray made. (Great idea Dad!)  Tomorrow is Friday and my last day off before starting my work week.  I hope it doesn't pour all day like it did today. I wanna play outside with Amiah, no matter how sick I am, its going to happen. Okay, better get some rest. Goodnight.

Me and delana!

Pile a presents

:)

The gift i gave her

Delana's baby shower

I'm on my way to go to Delana's baby shower. I'm super excited. She picked me up about twenty minutes ago and then we went and picked up her mom and grandma and now we r on our way to Hoffman Estates for the actual shower. I can't wait for her to experience this. I had so much fun during mine and I'm so glad she was able to experience mine and now I get to experience hers. Her belly is so freakn big and cute. I just wanna hug it. Lol. Ill be posting pictures. :D

Amiah and I in the sunset...

I thought the lighting was neat

Papa and his grandbaby, Amiah...

The arch of my foot hurts

Random thing, the arch of my foot really hurts currently, for no good reason that I can think of. Just hurts on the inside. Both when I'm standing and sitting. Worse when walking. Its a little swollen but barely noticeable when looking at it. I have no idea why it does this. Its happened before but doesn't happen too often. Everytime it annoys me enough to go to the doctor, it disappears before I can. Maybe its like arthritus or something. I'm never really doing anything strenuous or anything beforehand. It hurt lastnight and all day today and still hurts and I'm going to go to bed soon. I think if it continues to the morning I might go and get it checked. Ill probably sound like a lunatic trying to explain this to a doctor. Lol.

At Resa middle school

Waiting for Tyler. I can't believe he's in middle school already! It seems so little time ago that we had just became family. I love Tyler and I'm really proud of him. He's grown up so much! I'm glad Amiah has an awesome uncle! :D

Amiah and all her cuteness.

See the bottle of juice she has in her hand? That's crack for kids.

Where we went to the show

Super long line outside before the show....

At Subterrenian...

This was on the wall where we stood at the MC Chris show. Super creepy awesome.

Yay!

I'm on the way to Chicago to go to a concert. We are seeing MC Chris. He's a rapper. Nerd rap. Its awesome. I cannot wait. I've seen him only one other time. He's awesome. Ramon suprised me with tickets one day outta no where. He was originally going to buy me flowers but decided to do this instead. I'm glad he did. :) my dad is being super awesome and watching Amiah overnight so we could do this. Yay! Amiah has an awesome Papa!

Dooooooo

I miss Ramon. He went to play magic at a friends house. I just put Amiah down so I'm lonely.

Burlap

If you're ever about to burp, as soon as it comes out say burlap while you are actually burping. Its pretty funny. That is all. Proceed with your evening. :)

Its awesome when...

You wake up in the middle of the night and realize that you don't hafta work when you wake up.

Blippity blop

Hi. I'm sitting here on the couch and Rays watchn football. Why is couch not spelled cowch? It sounds that way. Also if couch is spelled that way and pronounced that way then why is touch not pronounced towched? Lol. Okay, back to reading, my brain obviously needs to be occupied. Ouch. Owch. Hahahha.

At work

Yes ramon looks like an angry beast but that's because he's at work. Lol jk it was then suns fault.

Is work over yet?

Nope. Not yet. Almost though. And then its gremlin time! She's so awesome. I am so thankful I have such an awesome little girl. She's so freakn amazing. I miss her terribly. She has a lot of fun over at Papa's house. I get jealous of how much stuff they do over there. I wish I was able to do all those things. Its just so hard having to work full time. I like being able to provide for her and pay to have family watch her. I wouldn't want it any other way.

My tummy hurts. That's what I get for ingesting mcdonalds french fries. Ew. But the cocacola is so amazing there! Yum. I think they put something in it to make it addicting. Its so delicious.

Okay back to work.
Back to reality.

On mah phone...

I downloaded the Blogger app for my phone. I may end up blogging a little more. Hopefully. I should be in bed now so ill write more tomorrow.

Pictures mean more than words

                 When I saw this, I had to stop and take a picture of it. It was one of the most prettiest things EVER. 

Ramon and I. Isn't he adorable?! The love of my life. Well, one of them. :) 

Amiah and I. She's such a beautiful little girl. The other love of my life. 

Another beautiful picture of the sky. I should be a damn calendar photographer. 

Papa bought her this chair when she was a new baby. She now climbs it like a pro. She usually uses it to reach the light switch in her bedroom. I wanted to bring it into the living room so she had a chair but she likes to just stand on it so we moved it back in her room where there's at least a wall she can hold herself up with so she doesn't kill herself. :)

I get a lot of compliments when I do my eye shadow like this. It's called snow cone. :) I'm such a girl sometimes. 

Finally got her pool filled up. The water was so super cold that she hasn't gotten in it all the way yet but pretty soon I hope. by the time the water warms up  it'll be winter. Ugh. The summer goes by too quick. I've noticed that it's a hell of a lot more fun with my gremlin. Everything is better with gremlin.

I don't know i just don't know I dont.

Heya! I'm sitting here on my couch while Amiah sleeps and Ramon plays Magic at the Robin's Nest. I figured what better time to blog. I haven't been blogging as often as I should. I think I always say that. At least I blog once in awhile. I guess it's better than nothing. I've had this blog for a pretty long time too. Pretty cool. I was thinking about creating a new blog using my other Gmail account. I don't use this one for anything but this blog. I just don't want to not blog in this one for a really long time and risk losing it for low usage or something. (I have no idea if it could go inactive for any reason). Maybe something to look into or if anyone knows please comment. 


I just ate an Oreo brownie. It was glorious. That is all.


I miss my brother. 

No worries

So. My weekend is going pretty awesome. It's the last day off before starting work but I'm not complaining. I had a good one. Yesterday I took Amiah to her doctor's appointment while Ramon mowed his parent's lawn. She got her 18 month check up and one shot. She handled it pretty well for the most part but she has really bad stranger anxiety towards the nurses and doctor but I'm pretty sure it's just because almost everytime we go there she has to get a shot. We then went shopping at Woodmans and got some cod and a huge rack of ribs. (Ramon cooked them lastnight with this cherry sauce that was like sweet and spicy at the same time it was absolutely delicious) and then we went to game stop and got an awesome Alice and Wonderland video game that came out recently. It's super tripped out and Alice is gothic and carries around a huge butcher knife.It's glorious.


Amiah is sitting on my lap right now and we're listening to Banana Pancakes by Jack Johnson. I love it. Life is sooo good. Although it gets so hard sometimes and doesn't make sense, no worries, cuz it'll work out. 

I'm sitting out in Ray's Mom's garage with Amiah. Well, shes not sitting, she's playing around with a couple of toys that are kept here in case Amiah or Brock come over. I have a little cup with cold water next to me. It has a straw for her to drink out of. I'll include a picture for your viewing pleasure.  So, I had my hair colored a vibrant bluish purple yesterday. It's a little brighter than I expected but I'm beginning to really like it. It's different. I've always wanted to do something like that but just never had. I'm glad I did it. It's definitely shocking. I'll include a picture of that as well. Ok. Byeeeee! I'll have to post the pictures as soon as I get them to Yahoo from my G2. Ok Yahoo was taking forever so I mailed them to my Gmail account and here they are. 

This is a picture that I barely got of Amiah zoomn around with my purse. lol.

She's been making this face which is the cutest facial expression I've ever seen. Especially when she smiles with her tongue out like that.

House for sale.

Hello. Here are the pictures from Ray's parents house. Isn't it pretty? The whole basement is finished as well. Fireplace and bar down there. Bathroom and kitchen too. It's like emaculate clean too. It's a little bit scary. lol. I'm not sure what they're selling it for but it sure is beautiful. I'm gonna miss them when they move. They  plan on going to McHenry. :(

Hey! Right now I'm sitting on the back porch of Ray's parents house. Ray is mowing the lawn. It's def one of the hottest days of summer. I decided to bring my lil laptop and connect to their wireless internet. 


I went to the chiropractor this morning for my back. It's been helping so much. I was getting kinda sick of going to the doctor and getting pain meds and nothing ever being done about it. I'm not sure if I mentioned it before but I found out that I have several rotated disks in my upper back and neck, which causes alot of pain on my left side near my shoulder blade. I have been going to the chiropractor every week to get my back adjusted and it's been going great.


I cannot blog long because we had to go inside because Amiah was looking pretty warm, red cheeks and all. Ray's parents put their house on the market so everything is beyond spotless. I'm afraid to even sit in here let alone having a wild animal gremlin running around. lol. Here's some pictures of their house and of Amiah. I have to do the house ones in a different blog because I hafta sign out real quick and go to my gmail to get em. (2 dif gmails)

A change.

It is absolutely rediculously hot out. We had to set our a/c timers for the air to turn on while we were at work so it would be nice and cool by the time we went home. I was wanting to go to the spray pad after work with Amiah but it wasn't turned on when we drove by and it always takes so long for them to turn it on that it would be kinda late by the time it was done. 


Today was the last day of work until our 3 day weekend. I'm kinda excited. Work has been quite stressful lately. My team has been challenging. They get mad when they have to follow the rules and stuff and they say that they're getting treated like children but then they throw fits and act like children. If they act like children it's fitting to treat them like children. Alot of them are so young already anways that it's like highschool. I cannot wait to become a manager. That's what I've been working on lately. Then I won't have to deal with the agents much, I'll only have to deal with my supervisors. It'll be so much better. I like to delegate anyways. 


Ok, I have to end this a little early because Ramon is wanting to eat dinner soon. I'll try to hop on here later! Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Good morning! I just woke up not too long ago. I woke up to Amiah making yelling noises from her bedroom. I woke up and Ray told me that she was calling me. I think that's adorable! I love her. I used to absolutely hate getting up in the morning and I'd find any and all excuses to go back to bed but having Amiah I have no reason to do that. I don't want to waste any Gremlin time. 


Lastnight I started getting this weird pain in the right side of my chest. I dunno what it could be but lastnight we decided to say it was an air or gas bubble. I went to bed thinking that it was going to go away but it hasn't. If it doesn't get better or get's any worse, I'm going to call the chiropractor. I went for an adjustment yesterday and that's the only thing that I can think of that would have possibly caused this. I just don't know how it didn't hurt until way lastnight if it was the chiro. ::shrugs:: Ahh well. 


I think I'm going to make breakfast soon. I am going to cook the bacon that my dad gave me the other day. I freakn love bacon. It's my favorite food. We have to go grocery shopping today. I am going to woodmans while Ray goes to his parents and mows their lawn. Amiah is gonna come with me. She loves cart rides and free cookies. 


She's sitting on my lap at the moment trying to get the keyboard under her paws. lol. She's growling because I won't let her. hahaha. Silly child. Keyboards are for adults.


Alright. I just wanted to post a lil somethin since I promised i wouldn't forget. so far so good. Have a great day! (it's my last day off before work).




squirreliejen is ooooooouuuuuuuuuuutttttttttttt

Kuh Kuh Krackle

Hello! It's been entirely too long since I've written on here. I guess life get's busy sometimes. I am sitting here, I just painted my nails (using that new Crackle nail polish). I'm waiting for it to dry. Ray is playing his Brink video game and I'm sitting at the dining room table. I'm such a little kid sometimes.I all had my nail polish lined up in front of me ready to pick out my colors. Ray surprised me and brought me home some new purple crackle nail polish that's different than what I have been getting. It's a more expensive brand, so I'm waiting to see how it turns out. 


We got done eating a fantastic dinner not too long ago. I went to Hilander and bought some steaks and rolls so we didn't have fast food. We've been trying to eat better food. Plus we save alot of money if we don't order out so many times. We also bring lunch with us instead of going out to lunch all the time at work. It can add up and it's so bad for you! You can spend so much less money and get so much more food at the grocery store, and better too!


I gave my dad a ride home today. It was good too cuz I was just in time. Amiah was happy too because Papa gave her a cookie and her crankiness disappeared. Papas have that of effect. Sucks we couldn't go see Ramon's dad today. We are planning on going next week. We are going to take a day off work and drive up to Elgin. It'll be right after we get paid too so it'll be easier. 


I better get off here and finish my nails. It's almost time to put the gremlin to bed. I had an awesome day off. Yesterday was awesome too. Amiah and I went with my mom to go to the mall. It was cool cuz I hadn't been there in so long and there were some super cool stores there. I also got one awesome pair of earrings. My mom does good in that department. Cleavers...stars...style. lol. 


Ok time for the clear coat. Don't be mad that I'm ending this entry. I'll def come back. It's been too long and I've remembered how much I like writing. Ok thanks bye. 

Amiah

Amiah

She's beautiful.

She's young.

She's innocent.

She's learning.

She's living.

She's loved.

I love her today.

I'll love her tomorrow.

I'll be her mother, her friend, 

her shoulder for sorrow.

My daughter.

My girl.

My entire world.

This light inside my heart,

became a growing piece of art.

My gremlin.

ugh

never went back to sleep.

holy fucking shit

dude. its four in the morning and my root canal teeth hurt so bad i couldnt help but cry. i took some pain meds but they dont seem to be kicking in yet. i hate this crap and i need to sleep. works gonna blow. please oh please make it stop hurting. ugh.

Always remember to praise. You might get free stuff.

To Bellatoria. (A glorious frozen pizza company)




"I'm contacting your company because my fiance and I just started eating your thin crust pizza. We went to Woodmans. (A grocery store in our area) and they were giving samples and we liked it so much we started buying them. They are now the only brand frozen pizza we buy. Its so delicious with the flavors and the cheese to sauce ratios and the crust is always perfectly crispy. My fiance and I have never had a better frozen pizza. I just wanted to tell you all thank you and great job. If you ever need a spokeswoman for your commercials, I'm your person! "



Thank you for your kind words!  I'll be sending a coupon, so that your next one is on us! 

Thank you for your interest (and enthusiasm) in Bellatoria!

Sincerely,
Theresa

ugh

well i havent posted in a really long time but i figured itd be good to do so. im just laying here waiting for ray to get home from the metro center. its good that he went out, its been forever since he has. i hope he has a good time. i finally got amiah to sleep. shes super sick and is coughing bad and has a super runny nose. i feel awful for her cuz theres nothing i can do to help her. all the cold meds are for four years and up. i am taking her to the doctor tomorrow morning so hopefully it wont be anything serious. ive been super blah the past couple days. i did something unexcusable. i cant believe i did that i forgot to pick up my lil brother from school. i am always afraid of doing that to amiah somewhere or something but  its even worse that i forgot my lil brother. i knew i messed up because i cant remember the last time my dad was as mad at me as he was yesterday. i know ill never do anything like that again tho cuz i literally bawled my eyes out for well more than a couple hours. i was like so pissed at myself cuz it happened.  still am. i just really hope that i can earn back that trust.

True Story. I'm Jane Doe chatting into T-Mobile's Online Support, and the waffle story really happened.

You have been connected to ^Derek E. 
Jane Doe: I need help with me and my boyfriend's phones. Something crazy happened. 
^Derek E: Hi Jane , welcome to T-Mobile live Chat. I’m ^Derek and I will be happy to assist you. Please give me a moment to review your question. 
Jane Doe: Thanks. 
Jane Doe: I didn't put my account information in because I just have questions about this crazy event. 
^Derek E: How are you today? 
Jane Doe: I'm doing good. Kinda weirded out though. 
Jane Doe: Do you want to hear the story? 
^Derek E: Okay. 
Jane Doe: And I swear to God I'm being 100 percent serious. 
^Derek E: What seems to be going on? 
Jane Doe: Ok. 
Jane Doe: My boyfriend has a Vibrant. 
Jane Doe: And I have a Cliq Xt. 
Jane Doe: We made lunch this afternoon. 
^Derek E: OKay. 
Jane Doe: We made some huge bacon and cheese stuffed burgers. 
Jane Doe: They were the size of a Mondo burger (If you've ever seen Goodburger) 
^Derek E: Okay. 
Jane Doe: And so when they were done, my boyfriend took a picture of it with his Vibrant. 
Jane Doe: And sent it to me via picture message. 
^Derek E: yes. 
Jane Doe: And here's the kicker. 
Jane Doe: I received a picture of an f'n WAFFLE. 
Jane Doe: I'm not even kidding you. 
Jane Doe: And what's even more weird about this 
Jane Doe: Is that he doesn't have the picture of the waffle in his phone, its in MINE!. (we are big food enthusiasts) 
^Derek E: Oh wow a waffle! 
Jane Doe: My waffle showed up as a picture message from my boyfriend on my phone. 
Jane Doe: Keep in mind, he doesnt even have a picture of a waffle on his phone. 
Jane Doe: But when you look at his phone it shows the picture of the f'n burger! 
Jane Doe: I'm not even kidding dude. 
^Derek E: Okay are you sure that you received the message from him that you where looking at? 
Jane Doe: Yes. We double checked. 
^Derek E: That is strange there. 
Jane Doe: And he showed me the pictures that he has on his phone and there weren't any waffles. 
^Derek E: Have you tried to send one since then? 
Jane Doe: We compared threads from the messages on our phones and they're exaclty the same except his has a burger, and mine a waffle. 
Jane Doe: He's going to try to send it again. 
^Derek E: Okay can you try tha t again for me please? 
Jane Doe: Yep, I'll let you know, he's doing it right now. 
^Derek E: Thanks. 
Jane Doe: It's a burger this time. 
^Derek E: Okay. 
Jane Doe: I know you guys think I'm crazy right now but it really happened. 
Jane Doe: It was the weirdest thing that's ever happened. 
^Derek E: I don't know what may have happened there. Weird! 
Jane Doe: So my question to you. 
^Derek E: It may have been some sort of network glitch that may have caused that. 
Jane Doe: Are there any outages that may have caused this? 
^Derek E: I can look into that for you if you can provide me with a address for where you atre located. 
Jane Doe: 1648 6th Ave Rockford il 61104 
^Derek E: Thanks give me 3 minutes to look into that coverage. 
Jane Doe: Thank you. 
^Derek E: I have looked into the coverage and see that there are a few tower outages in the surrounding area but none in the immediate area. 
^Derek E: Is there anything else we can assist you with today? 
Jane Doe: Nope, I just needed to tell someone about that issue. 
Jane Doe: Sharing is caring. 
^Derek E: Thank you for contacting T-Mobile Chat, hope that does not happpen again. Have a great day! 
Jane Doe: You too! bye!

New year's resolution noituloser s'raey weN

Very rarely do I make a new year's resolution. But this year, I've decided that I'm going to try to be more patient.